I want to believe you so badly.

The aftertaste of mad retail therapy can be summed up with one word.
SHIOK.

Went shopping with Mummy today, after meeting Darice & Miss Tan for uh, High Tea? Heh. Gosh I bought so many things ranging from bag to shoes to tanks to pants, XD FREAKING HAPPYYYYYYY~

& Olivia and I were talking on msn last night, sharing stories on insensitive ppl of our lives. (ROAR) And we've decided that we shld write a Guys manual, on the Do-s & Don't-s. Seriously, before we die of exasperation LOL.

O: "Judging from the level of ignorance guys display, I think Volume 1 is gonna be out by CNY."
ROFLMAO.

Anyway, I think I'm over-reacting/over analysing a lot of stuff. And I'm oversensitive, as always. And I'm over-rating your level of importance. Gaaaaaaah.

I hate it when people say one thing but mean another. Cause you don't know when the other party takes your word seriously, and how your statements can impact them.

Gtg, before phone call lasts too long.
And before I'm late again tomorrow.

It's 930 in the morning. And I didn't wake up cause of alarms. Again.





But anyway, the seniors joined in the dance with them. Feels so much like Adelaide. Wait for the videoooooos (: Oh we even did impromptu performance due to crowd pressure. Oh well, <3.

Looking for the Chingay soundtrack which Miss Leow said will be uploaded tonight. To no avail. Sian. O:

Anw it's been awhile since I updated about my life. Been veh lazy. Heh. O:
Trying to finish Fated To Love You, getting kinda boring gah.

& I love my Super Troop (LOL yeaps, changed name) Thanks for the consistent support man.
I like phone convos at night.
Hello Kitty, Hello Panda, Hello Motor, Hello-weeeen. :D LOL FREAK RETARDED.

Went to Compass with Ho Sux & Loh today. Super long since I saw Loh I miss her so so muchhhhh, do you hear me I miss you so so much lohyiling! It's been a month, and I realised so much have changed. For the better, or for the worse? It's too early to say. Ho bought materials to make card for xmas, makes me wonder if I should do the same too. So little time left O: & Suxy, I think you shld come over to finish our ^^ soon. Heh.

Slacked at Starbucks, Dark Mocha ftw :D Updated Phy so muchhhh luh. (L) Walked around shopping, though am not in the mood. Didn't try on any clothes.
Sux: Everytime we accompany you try clothes, now your turn uh LOL"
Saw Gwendy, & Zaff heh. Pepper plus is having sales. So tempting lol.

Anw I recalled a convo w Sux on the 16th Dec.
17th Dec we were going to O's ktv thing.

Sux: Eh what you wearing tmrw uh?
Me: Uh.. Don't know eh. Haiya anyhow wear lor, dressing not important lah.
Sux: O.O DID YOU JUST SAY THAT?

LOL okay I bet only few ppl know what's so funny about it HEH.

Tomorrow's 6Humility Class gathering :D Bowlingxzs heh. Realised I have more Chingay dance to catch up, and acc to them it's not easy O: Oh well, we'll see. Wanna learn it asap ):
Anw tmrw evening O has another ktv session. But it's early evening. And I don't know if I should go or not. I wonder what's the dilemma -.-

I think ST's right.
Perfect ending?
I think I know what it should be.
Mind over heart, Sylvia.
Think logical. Be rational.
I shouldn't be feeling indecisive anymore.
It's the best way out.

At least for now.

Anyway.

I realise my life has been mad shopping and shopping and shopping recently.
And now I conclude that Singapore's small and boring.

Went Newmooooooonz with T, O, J, A, X. :D PS at noon, had lunch, had starbucks and played Charadeeeeees (Yes Alvan, Charades is spelt this way LOL)

CHARADES.IS.RETARDEDLY.FUN.
Seriously!

Anw, Newmoon was just alright. Personally don't think it suck as much as what the others have said, but yeap, it wasn't fantastic. Taylor Launter was hot, LOL. Like you didn't already knowwww. O & J left after movie, cfm go date heh!

Oh oh oh, Suen sang a sentence in tune. (GASP) HAHA. And we were still calling him a frog for croaking hahah. Had Jap dinner, gave all my pork to suen heh. Slacked at Macs Cafe after that, and continued second round of Charades. Amsterdam, Gay dude, Sex positions, Miss Congenality 2 LOL. But the drinks there weren't nice O:

Yeaaaaah, all in all today was still funnnnn :D

OH YES PPL PLEASE JOIN CHINGAY IF YOU'RE INTERESTED, STRONG GUYS ESPECIALLY NEEDED HEH. (:

XH wanted to call and tell me something, but her mother wanted her to sleep. And she's giving me insomnia. (ROAR) Let's just hope it's nothing bad ):

Lion and Chicken are coming over tmrw. I anticipate it to be fun. I hope Mrs Elephant can join us too. Honestly, it feels like I'm getting married HAHA. I think we're gonna spend the afternoon shopping, then playing (LOL) and raiding my house hahaha.

Anw, I'm seriously grateful for the support I get from my dear friends, (L) As what Olivia said, I have a strong background supporting team (You guys get what I mean), and these people are the super capable people LOL. And honestly, I agree with her, ttm :D Hahah, I just realised I'm referring to like, 10people hahah.

Can act, can advise, can listen to my neverending rants, can rationalise, can comfort, can scold, can curse. can create opportunities, can make me feel loved (:
Thanks guys, I think trusting you was more than just a right choice I've made. (:
Yes Ho, I willingly repay you with myself, for the rest of our lives :D:D HAHAHA.

Stare. Nothing happens. Stare. Something happens. Anticipate. Look. Disappointment. Sigh. Stare. Nothing happens.

I honestly think I shld stop getting my darn hopes up. Because deeply I know, these are all self-induced due to over-reading on my part. And that at the end of the day, I'll eventually have to face the plunge down to the bottom. And hoping is already draining me out.

AM said Bella has bad taste for guys.
So do I.

MONDAY :D

Met Kenny at Starbucks instead. Gosh I miss slacking times at Starbucks, been darn long since I drank there. Dark Mocha ftw!!! :D (Of course Kenny treated heh) Slacked there for 3 hours, talking. (Yes O we just sat thr ROFL) He told me a lottttttt gah. O:

Should I joinnnnnnnnn CPC. ): From the looks of it, it's gonna be a huge responsibility O: And the commitment level is 2years, roar. And the role to be undertaken.. Seems prestigious, but pressurising. First project to be SL seminar, next feb (!!!) I seriously don't see how the 3 of us can run a seminar. THREE ONLY O: But K said it'd be okay.

(I still have my reservations that it's just a ploy to __ (ROFL) , like what I mentioned to the girls =/)

Met Chicken, Mr & Mrs Elephant at Plaza thereafter. :D Lunched at Manhattan Fish Market. I think they serve good quality food, rather budget too. Creamy pasta heh (: Shopped around, Outfitter Girls have pretty dresses. But because of the Criteria that I wanted.. Gah. Maybe they're right afterall. I should be more open to other options and not be so narrow-minded and persistent on That and only That.

Sux came over to my house and hahahah, let's just leave it at We Had Hell Lot Of Fun. :D Photos shall be up after Christmas XD (SO EXCITING)


TUESDAY. :D

Went out with Sux agaaaaain. Vivolicious :D Continued the hunt, retail therapy!!! We both love the feeling of shopping without having to worry about homework, or under the pressure that we HAVE to buy something. It's just trying and trying and tryingggggg. (I'm sure all sec4s understand) Okay luh, quite fun heh. Raided Candy Empire, & Daiso after that.

In Candy Empire..
Sux: Don't know what to buy eh..
Me: Oooh look! Dark Chocolates omggg.
Sux: Hm.. Don't really feel like eating Dark Chocolates today...

15minutes later.
- Suxian walks out of Candy Empire, happily swinging a bag of Dark Chocolates-

ROFLMAOXZS.

Oh I (L) Forever 21. I used to think it's overrated, big time. But I guess that's because I have never really paid close attention to the clothings there. Now I think they are pretty, & I love their style whooooooots. Tried their clothes, and somehow they're all quite fitting. (: Gosh I am so gonna earn money to satisfy the shopaholic part of me. (!!!)

"My motivation to work will be these pretty clothes!"
And the I (L) High-Waist skirts suddenly :D

Then we went to Orchard, AGAIN. Forever Orchard, Spore's so limited.

Bought pretty lipgloss, Silkygirl is loveeeeeeee. (: Starhub was giving out Green Apples yesterday, "There's a Star in every Apple" LOL. Sour, but delicious. Been long since I ate green apples, heh. Walked around Wisma and ION (ROAR) and Taka for a little. Trained down to Hougang after that to meet Darice HMJ.

Bought a DarkBrown eyeliner :D Vanity much? Requirements, more like it. And Darice actually asked me to help her makeup, joke of the century HAHAHA. Trying to look for nice rubberbands and clips, but Chameleon's seriously limited. Another craze of the day: Blingbling hairbands (!!!) Wanted to buy, but so ex.. ):

CottonOn-ed. I realised I've been to Hougang Mall's Cotton On for 4 consecutive days O: Wanted so desperately to get a skirt, but I don't like the pringggggs. ): Nehmind, I still have time. Limited though, if you get what I mean. O:

Walked around trying out blackshoes. Another requirement of work. Sian, either they're too ugly, or they're super uncomfortable. Or, expensive. Decided on the school shoes style in the end, rofl. But they look so ugly I don't think I'll ever wear them out after I leave work.

TWO DAYS' UPDATE DONE :D:D


Suddenly I realise I've been shopping for super long alr. And it just doesn't seem right to be going that extra mile for That. Shopping's absolutely fine, duh. It's just that I realised I've only been shopping for That, and I don't get why I'm treating it with such importance. Especially when it probably is just only on my part.

Oh wellxzs. Part & Parcel of life.

Was supposed to have our Sushi treat from Miss Lee today. We as in the Olevel drama group. But she's uncontactable luh I've been spamming her with calls yesterday!!!

Cass: We know how much you wanted it, hahaha.

ROFLMAOXZS.

Was also supposed to go jogging with Darice today. But she ps me cause she feels unwell LOL. But I'm too nice to be angry with her :D

So yeah, decided to go for the Case39 outing with the Sentosa Gang again :D But Case39's a horror movie, plus I seriously need to save up. So I'll meet them later after their movie. (IN ORCHARD AGAIN, CAN YOU BELIEVE IT)

Suxian just sent me a message.

"(blahblahblah..) Your RYLJ coming also :D"
HAHAHAH. Figure it out yrself. RYLJ HEH.

In the meantime, I have decided.

I.AM.GOING.TO.CUT.MY.HAIR. :D
After procrastinating for hell long.

So yeah tooodles! Cause I take darn long to prepare before I can leave the house. (Sees everyone nodding in agreement)

The other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.

My lovely cousin, who's currently otp with me (L)

Heh, Weishan introduced me to the drama series It Started With A Kiss today. Yeahh, I know it's a super long ago show. But oh well, :D I watched a few eps today. Think I might continue if I find the time to O:

From Class Chalet 09, nice condo :D

Sentosa outing with the gang, :D

Wooooosh, realised I've been neglecting my blog a lot. Super busy week O:

Sec3 Olevel drama students are performing tomorrow. All the best dear juniors :D Shall pop down to have a look tmrw before going out (:

In all honesty, I don't know what exactly happened. Something inside me is telling me that a huge misunderstanding exists between us. A misunderstanding that only you know about. Clarifying seems like the fastest and most effective way out, but knowing you, you'll just deny and not let me know what you honestly feel. Which makes it pointless. And it leaves me in utter confusion. To the extent that I don't know if I should carry on pretending as though I'm entirely fine with this distance, and entirely fine with losing a friend like you.

It just feels like you're forever behind a mask. Never letting us know how you geniuinely feel. I'm confused about whether I should take a step forward to try salvaging this, or back away, because that may in fact be what you want deep down. Looking back at the irony, yes, I recall I used to think that you're the easiest to communicate with, and the hardest to drift away from.

Why are you proving me wrong now?

The week has been busybusybusyyyyy.

Weixuan's birthday party :D Woooosh, nice food hahaha. And nice condo, pretty pool. Dare with classmates is super funnnn. :D "I lost my underwear!" ROFL.

Then PROMMMMM. Wooohoooo, I love the experience. And major camwhoring. And the stay at hotel was shiok (:

And then council chalet :D Fun juniors that I'm so gonna miss ttm.

Class chalet was fun too :D I'm gonna miss fourone loads as well.

Tomorrow' Sentosaaaaaa. Let's just end it here. No photos for now wooosh.

"It takes skill to create false hopes, and I think you're professional at that"
Gosh I'm falling in too quick.

Investiture is over! (Yesterday)
Was too tired to blog. I slept at 7pm can you believe it. Totally KO-ed. It must've been the earliest I've slept in these few years O:

Hahaha and yeap, it was yet another success. I'm super proud of my juniors, (L)

My speech said it all, I can't bear to leave ASC. We've been through so much and learnt such a great deal. But I know it's part and parcel of life.

I hate goodbyes.

(I couldn't stop tearing halfway through invest, especially during Handover and Hid's speech. How glam O:)
Seriously, yesterday my eyes were like faulty taps. Every little thing brings out the tears. Even Hidhir's smses and the juniors' hugs O: What's wrong with me, roar.

But in anycase, thankyou dearests for the Sec4 Tribute, we really appreciate it. (:

Let my blog be spammed with random ASC memories; pictures are worth a thousand words. (L)

One Council, One Voice.

To Lead, To Care, To Serve ♥

WOOHOOOO. TGISaturday! :D
Hahaha, had a really busy post-exam week!